School - not so important

I have this one person that discourages me. She is convinced she's doing a good thing for me. She says that that is good for my intellectuality. I still haven't found the courage to go to her and say 'please, i will stop doing this' because she is authority in my life right now. 

When weekend comes, I want to say 'yaaaay, i can go out finally', I don't want to go to someones house and study with them just because they are too bored to do it alone, i don't want to think of a weekend as a bothersome thing. 

I know that everyone knows that i study, but did anyone ever had a thought 'hey, she's not studying always, maybe she wants to go bungee jumping, to read a book, to have free time' ? Probably not. 

I'm not saying that i don't have the patience to study with them. I have the patience.I just feel like I'm going to miss something, like I'm wasting time. I really think that our lives are so short, that we can't do everything we want. Because of that, I'm feeling like this.

Because of that, I'm going to go to that person and I'm going to stop this 

You maybe think that this is nothing, that I'm just selfish, but, believe me, this is torturing. For a person like me, I don't care if in a situation like this I look selfish because there are more important things in this period than studying and school. I just don't have time for them right now.

New image

School started today. I finally got to see my best friends. We didn't get to talk a lot because we got some new subjects and, of course new teachers.

We got 5 new subjects : microbiology, pathology, hygiene, psychology and pharmacology. I really look forward to studying all this, but it's going to be tough.

Since school started, and i see that studying will take most of my time, i'm sad that i won't have time to watch anime or even some movie.My days will probably contain only studying, going to school, sleeping and eventually going out with friends. 

In my class, people usually think that in high school, you shouldn't study, you should just have fun. They don't study at all and they call few of us nerds (go figure). I don't really mind because i'm ambicious person and i don't mind being called like that if it's going to make my dream come true. 

I swear, here on my blog, that i will make it and that my results will be perfect at the end of the year. If i made it last year, i'll make it this year. 

I should probably make one post about schooling system in Serbia. I know that in other countries medical high school doesn't exist. I'm not really sure about that but I think they only have medical universities.

Unexpected turn

I kind of knew it would be something like this. Though i denied it, saying 'no~, this could never happen to her'. Was I too naive ? Thinking that everything would be alright with both of them forever?

Sometimes i really hate that side of me that's too optimistic. Perhaps i shouldn't expect from others that much.

If it's me, i'm positive i can do everything i want. Again, too naive and optimistic ? I wonder, for how long i can keep thinking like that ?

'What to write in my first blog post?'

I'm probably not the only one who, before writing my first blog post, searched on Google 'what to write in my first blog post?', so I'm going to be honest and try to introduce myself.

This is a picture of me and my best friend. I'm the one on the left side, by the way. So, Maria is my humble name and I'm 15.
As I'm only in high school, i have many interests, and few of them are medicine, traveling, asian countries, anime.
In september, i'm starting a second year in medical high school. I'm very dedicated to this as I hope to go to another country and practice medicine there.

I created this blog purely to write about my daily happenings, feelings, family, and most important, about things i'm interested in. There is one more reason. I wrote in the 'About me' section that i find it very uncomfortable to write on paper for some reason. Maybe i just don't like how i write . I don't know.

If you are interested in anything, feel free to comment :)