I have this one person that discourages me. She is convinced she's doing a good thing for me. She says that that is good for my intellectuality. I still haven't found the courage to go to her and say 'please, i will stop doing this' because she is authority in my life right now.
When weekend comes, I want to say 'yaaaay, i can go out finally', I don't want to go to someones house and study with them just because they are too bored to do it alone, i don't want to think of a weekend as a bothersome thing.
I know that everyone knows that i study, but did anyone ever had a thought 'hey, she's not studying always, maybe she wants to go bungee jumping, to read a book, to have free time' ? Probably not.
I'm not saying that i don't have the patience to study with them. I have the patience.I just feel like I'm going to miss something, like I'm wasting time. I really think that our lives are so short, that we can't do everything we want. Because of that, I'm feeling like this.
Because of that, I'm going to go to that person and I'm going to stop this
You maybe think that this is nothing, that I'm just selfish, but, believe me, this is torturing. For a person like me, I don't care if in a situation like this I look selfish because there are more important things in this period than studying and school. I just don't have time for them right now.
